We'll go from here

This is to A, for the many nights at Pantai Teluk Chempedak, defining, wondering, reasoning and endless worrying..

"So I guess we are who we are for a lot of reasons. And maybe we'll never know most of them. But even if we don't have the power to choose where we come from, we can still choose where we go from there. We can still do things. And we can try to feel okay about them." 

-The Perks of Being a Wallflower

Let's take life one thing at a time. Enjoy life's little things. 

Hanging in there!

It has been a rough week, physically and emotionally speaking. I have been running here and there for the past 2 weeks and it is seriously exhausting. Emotionally speaking, I am fine now, really. I really appreciate all the pep talks, encouragement but I don't actually want to talk about it. Other people have suffered for worse tragedies, so mine is not really worth mentioning. It is just another episode and I am ready for the next one.

Drowning

who says seeing is believing?

some instincts just can't be trusted.. haishh

Aku tidak perlukan fantasi itu?

What a wise man says..

I was browsing through my Picasa 3 (which is an awesome free software from Google by the way) and stumbled upon this picture. I remember saving it from the web a few months back because I liked it so much and I wanted to share it with friends but it ended up not moving in my folder. I especially like Freedom and Slavery are Mental States and Each one has to Find His Peace From Within. Oh this one is excellent too, The Weak Can Never Forgive, Forgiveness is the Attribute of the Strong. Wow...

I have a hard time choosing my favorite. Then again, these must be somebody's favorite too since it was compiled to one picture. Oklah, semualah best!

Perfecting The Dance

In order to take a step forward,

I need to take 2 steps back,

waduh.. waduh..

Finally

I am too comfortable in my seat and it is not good. It's like a quicksand. The harder I tried to get out, the deeper I fall. I would love a fresh start but that would mean I need a new me. Or rather, an old me back. I need to be motivated. I need to see that something will happen in the future. 

So, here's the thing. I screwed up many things for these past few months. What I need to do for a fresh, clean start is that I need to clean up those messes that I made and God knows that it is not going to be easy. Before everything starts crumbling down, I need to get my act together. I need to face the consequences. So, it's going to be a "thick face" phase for me but I deserve that. I need to change desperately. 

It's a new beginning.. finally. Pray for me.